Don't worry so much, just relax and enjoy life. Growing up I have realized that life does not always go the way as planned. It throws you with obstacles and challenges that your not ready for. Unfortunately, we only live once and a lot of us instead of focusing on the more important things in life, tend to focus more on others or "What will that person think of me?" type of lifestyle. Its not our fault, were humans and this is how society has raised us to think. We have been brainwashed to think that the only way to "fit in" is to go along with the crowd. From my own experiences, I truly believe that you shouldn't worry about what other people think of you, you need to do what makes you happy and benefits you the most.
During middle school I was in choir, I loved to sing constantly and whenever I had the chance to get a solo I would take the opportunity to do so. At first, I was really shy because I barely knew anyone in my class. It was a different type of environment that I was not used too. My teacher gave us the chance to sing one song to show him what we were like so of course I chose Jesus Take the Wheel by Carrie Underwood. Once I finished singing everyone was in complete shock, considering that I was so quiet. My choir teacher came up to me afterwards and told me what an amazing voice I had. And I thanked him but denied what he had told me. I didn't believe that I was good because I only sang for fun, I didn't do it to have people judge me or congratulate me. A couple of weeks had went by and opportunities for solos had came up and I had thought about doing one, so I did. And after that solo I did another one and a couple more after that. Soon after, I over heard some of my own classmates say that I didn't sing well or that I never gave anyone a chance to sing. This then made stop singing for a while. I remember I hated going into choir class each day. I felt as if I was stuck in a deserted area all by myself with no one to turn to. I told my grandpa what was going on because he had realized that I wasn't really myself. He explained to me something that I'll never forget. He told me that if I constantly let people stop me from doing what I want to do, then I will never be happy. I won't ever do anything for myself, I will always constantly do things to please others. And in this moment I realized how foolish I was to let people stop me from doing my passion.
Today, I still look back at that experience that went on for a few weeks. I'm proud of myself that I was able to move on and be able to overcome and not care what people thought. From freshman year until now I always try to remember what my grandpa told me. There's still times today that I do let people get to me and I worry too much, which is normal for everyone. But there's times when I need to stop and look at why I worry so much because if those people in my life are truly my friends then they should be able to support me in whatever I do. Everyday you need to be happy and do what makes you happy. Don't worry about what other people think of you, live your life the way you want to live.
Love that that song is so clearly important to you, as it is also the one you sang to us the first few weeks of school.
ReplyDeleteIt's interesting - this feeling never really goes away. It's so timely that I am reading this right now because I am also working through a situation like this right now! You have given me some good perspective :D
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